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목요일, 1월 27, 2005

Hmm..thinking again. Went through a couple of random blogs--not that I know them personally, but somehow, they really set me thinking. Thinking of wat, u may ask. To which i can only say, 'things'. Duh, u may rebutt me, everybody thinks of things dun they. WEll, i din say i was thinking of anything in particular did i. Its jus tt sometimes u can jus sit there n hu si luan xiang. Ever tried recalling what u did at the end of the dae? It feels jus like u are rewinding a tape..images flashing back at rapid rewind mode in ur head--only diff is that its ur life, not jus some crappy soap drama. Of cos, i dun feel that all soaps are crappy. Instead, i beg to differ. Cos more often than not, i believe in them. No matter how corny the plot maybe..it still instills a ray of hope in me, regardless of how small it may be. The world is cruel..jus like the truth may be. I dun feel that anyone is truly indispensable to anyone else in this world. But i do feel that everyone do need another someone. What joy is there if u cun share it with anyone else. But e blogs i read..a few were lamenting of their lost love. Makes me feel sad along with them.

I still rem the time i went to receive my As results..it was the first time i cried out of happiness. Literally. N e first thing i did was to share it with someone. Even though at that time he was working, i still felt happier calling him to tell him. But well, u know soap dramas. 9 out of 10 times, the guy cheated on e gal. I cun tolerate infidelity, thats for sure. Even if the guy knew he's in the wrong n comes back to beg u to take him back..if there's a one time, who can confirm that there wun be a second time. Hopefully, he will be the 10th guy. Yeah, thats wat i hope. N i do believe him. N myself. Todae is the 27th of january. N yesterdae was our one-month-to-2 years anniversary. Heh n i miss him alreade. Shall stop thinkg of morbid thots that he will leave me. Watched too many soaps..cun they have happier plots or something..?! Darn all those shows..

*transit of mood from sadist to gay*

Oh jus thought of a lousy joke my student asked me the other time. Is Happy a guy or a gal? ANd the answer was GAY. Hahahahahaha..(leng xiao hua..) Heh bought a chocolate block, jelly moulds, coloured toppings and cookie cutters ydae!! so fun..wanna melt e choco n make it into heart n teddybear shapes..cos CNY is coming!!(who am i kidding) hah..i mean valentine's dae lah..im a poor gal u see..cun afford expensive stuff..ooooohh n im going to see disney on ice-princess classics on 12th march!! yeahhhh~~ but abit sad cos my seats are also at the side again, jus like last year cos e front seats are sold out ah..cun believe so many pple actually bought e tix almost 2-3 mths ahead of the real thingy. Grrrrr...*angry* anywae its my bdae present!! haha..2 more mths to being the age-old, revered 21!! yukes..

ok guess i gotta leave alreade..goin for my first jap tb class..abit regretted taking jap2 cos i feel lonely!! sabishi desune..sigh..jus got to be braver~

Its a lonely world out there~~(in nus jap ta n tb classes)

또 울어버렸다.. @ 1:19 PM

목요일, 1월 13, 2005

School starts again..

A whole new term again. Note that i placed the emphasis on the word again. But i do kinda envy the kind of university life that the people in the show 'Hearts of fencing' have. Really, they make it seem so nice n fun..especially when u r involved in something that is like exclusively available to only u n a few of ur good frens. A few gals, and a few guys..just to make up a clique that is really yours. One that u feel really comfortable in..and every day u look forward to seeing in school. Hmm but i guess it wun happen to me..well only in sec school did i have a group of frens large enuf to be labelled as a 'clique'. As for JC although i only had 2 other frens that i really stick to, they were really close n we did have a really nice time..Now everybdy seems to be pretty detached n isolated from everybdy else..is that how frenships go? Or issit fault on my part that i failed to grasp them as tightly as i should have. Perhaps i could have been a better fren. Then probably more people will be willing to be my frens in school. But somehow, i still believe that some frens, they will always be there. No matter how long you have not seen them, the same chemistry still exists when u do finally meet up with them. And im glad i do have a few frens that belong to this category. Maybe they are the ones that i will grow up with and still remain frens forever, rather than just mere acquaintances.
Or perhaps i should just be more sociable. Hmm.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:07 AM

일요일, 1월 02, 2005

A rainy new year..

It seems to be raining and raining nowadaes. Nah, its not the fact that im complaining about the incessant rain but the gloom that it is casting on what should have been a 'bright' step into a new year. But oh well, i guess it probably bodes ill for the coming year. *touch wood* Getting abit obsessed with facial masks recently. Hehz. Got so many at home now which of cos all belonging to me, im beginning to doubt that i can finish using all of them. Thats what they called 'Greed', don't they. There's Loreal's skin refiner-pore minimising self heating mask, Garnier's whitening infusion tissue mask, Nivea Visage's pampering honey mask, Neutrogena's fine fairness mask and pore refining mask, Simple's deep cleansing facial mask, ZA's metavoltage cream mask, Freeman's purifying facial clay masque and counting...haha..n im still hankering after this yogurt mask from a shop in bugis and a mask from the Natural Source. The metavoltage n self heating mask are my personal favourites amongst all of them..oh did i miss out my SKII facial essence mask? Haven tried that myself cos the previous and one n only one that i bought was used by my mum (the nerve) n till now i haven bought another one already. Think it costs $28 for one piece..anybdy smell the burning hole in my jeans pocket? Guess that will have to wait til i get my pay which is actually a week late cos the gal or issit the mother forgot about my pay.

ps/I hate tUitiOn!! (i mean to some students..)
pps/ I hate sPywaRe!! #@$#^$& grrrrrr..
ppps/my money finally came back after 2 weeks of imprisonment at the bank n the ultimate is that within the same hr that it came back, it was lost again due to the fault of some stupid light. Cos my mum asked me to pay for her for this light cum fan thingy that costs a blastering $213!!!
pppps/im cOld~~~~ *shivers*

또 울어버렸다.. @ 2:17 PM